Wrong

Today is wrong. There's too much going on.

1. Sam's swelling is back, she feels like shit. How much longer are we supposed to do this?
2. Alec has to practice taking the bus tomorrow. It's like I told him he has to fly to Hong Kong by himself. He's freaking out. I gave him Xanax.
3. I'm broke.
4. Neither one of my older children who live away from home called me. Today is Easter. I don't care that they don't believe...I do and they didn't call me.
5. My dad is insisting on entertaining my brother repeatedly which means I can't go there. My brother, who's wife said Sam was retarded because she was afraid of them. My brother who told my sister Jenni that he was going to shoot her. And now my sisters are embracing my brother. That's fine, I just don't want to hear about it. I don't want pictures of their kids. He can kiss my ass.
6. I have no one to talk to. Absolutely no one. NO ONE. NO ONE. NO ONE.

Long Time....

Nothing good going on. Sam had an ICP monitor in February...14th to be exact. Since then she's had a fluid leak into her scalp. I think it's getting better but they had to turn down the pressure on her shunt to stop the leak. So she's constantly nauseated and headachy but I guess they have to stop the leak.

I might write some more tomorrow, everything is overwhelming.