Answer the damn phone...

I should answer the phone...They are just trying to help me pay my gas bill....Ok I promise, next time they call, I will take a deep breath and just answer. How bad can it be???? Ok house needs serious attention...Yesterday was blow off day, I was tired and fighting off a migraine. Today Nik and I are going to Old Navy so he can spend his hard earned money on clothes and so I can wish I had more money to buy him some myself. Oh well, He's almost 21 now...It's time...

I answered, I'm good til the 10th...Phew it's cold out there...I hate this living check to check, well barely, but it's better than living alcohol binge to alcohol binge...

No Change...

Sam says she would not change a thing about her life. Well, I am sure she wishes her dad and I were still together, but she is talking about the last 3 years of her life. She has learned so much, taught me so much and lived so much that it has all been worth it to her. I have to go, it is about 20 degrees in my house and my right hand is so cold I can barely type.....Going to bed...tiredness is setting in.... 9 hours of sleep would be great....Love you all...Ellen p.s. she came home yesterday. I pick her up at Nanas tomorrow, cannot wait, I miss that little girl with all my heart. Our house misses her. Abbey misses her and Alec does too, even tho he probably will not admit it.

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I should learn to photosynthesize.

[23 Feb 200603:28pm]

[ mood Airless. ] [ music Mirah ] In a recent interview, mother of four Ellen Robertson attributes the shortness of breath to "stress." "I get short of breath whenever I get stressed out, too," Robertson explained. Seventeen year old patient Caitlin Kirkpatrick disagrees. "WebMD said that there is only one possible reason why every day it feels like rubberbands are being wound around my lungs. It's congestive heart failure," said Kirkpatrick. Robertson, who is indeed Kirkpatrick's mother retorted, "Or it could be late onset cystic fibrosis." Parents just don't understand. Can you tell that Caitlin is an editor for the school newpaper????

Canton PD

I have a daughter in the hospital and I have to go to Canton PD this week, Monday thru Thursday 8:30 am to 4:30 pm to take a class I've already gone to. I have been a training officer for about 7 years and now I have to take the class again. But whatever, just bad timing. Sam's doing ok, little scare with her sodium yesterday but it's back to normal today. It's cold here today, it's 11 but it's warmer than yesterday. Alec and I went to a movie and dinner last night. It was fun, we always have a lot of fun together, even when I'm forcing him to eat.

PseudoCRAP!!!!

Sam has a pseudocyst in her abdomen causing all these problems. Now I'm trying to figure out how I'm going to work and be at the hospital at the same time. I called in sick tomorrow but Thursday is a problem. I'm out of sick time. Who needs money anyway???? I'm home tonight with Alec so he's happy for the moment. Not sure what we're going to do next week......Ok I'm done with my pity party, I'm going to go to bed and sleep like a baby. Uh huh....

Chris forgot to pick up Alec again. I was downtown, waiting to find out whats happening with Samantha and tried to call him to let him know we were still waiting. No answer..Ok he's probably in the shower. Call back at 11:50, no answer, Alec supposed to be picked up at 11:20. I call the school...Is Alec Robertson still there? Yes he is, he's the last one to be picked up. I'm down at Childrens with Samantha, I don't know where his dad is, I'll see if my daughter can pick him up. Caitlin, I'm sorry, I know you don't have a car and that we count on other people to drive you around sometimes but could you beg someone to leave newspaper, which is so important, and go pick up Alec? Sure mom, of course...Where's Chris...I don't know Caitlin....Alec is finally picked up by Chris at 12:22 (according to Alec)....Chris where were you? Oh I accidently set my alarm for 11:45 instead of 10:45....Yeah right, then why did it take you another 35 mins to pick him up...I've worked midnights, I know it sux but you better damn well know that I wouldn't have been late picking him up on a day when my daughter was in the hospital and everyone is counting on me to do this one little thing.

Brown Valve

Sam's valve for her shunt is now brown, whatever that means. It used to be yellow. The brown is not working, she feels like shit, head is killing her. So we're waiting for Dr Sood to call back, to find out what we're going to do. Update....ER tomorrow morning, she's developed a leak and has a huge swelling on her back. Dammit all!!!!

Growth Hormone strikes Sammi's shunt!!!!

http://www.caringbridge.org/mi/sammijean

Sam's shunt needs to be replaced since she's outgrown this one, thanks to the growth hormone...We always thought she'd outgrow the tubing but never thought about the shunt. She's up and walking around, for some reason her left eye was swollen this morning but looks better now. We're doing fine, having fun and trying to figure out how to make her birthday (13th) good while we're in here....Any ideas?? Send them to me. Love, Ellen

ICP

Tomorrow Sam is having an ICP monitor placed, not a big deal but any surgery can be a big deal..I'll update as soon as I can but check her website for more...Thanks. Ellen