Alec the Amazing...

Alec is amazing, I am tired, Caitlin has moved, Nikolaas took care of his girlfriend, Sammi is safely tucked away at Aunt Ruthies house, Abbey is still flabby and Amy misses Samantha. I'll write more tomorrow.

Alec

Well, Alec is still in the hospital, probably will be for at least 2-3 weeks. He's making some progress. He has to earn visitation with us. So far today he's got 2 hours banked. But today is Nik's birthday so we're going out to eat then we'll go visit Al. I couldn't sleep today, even tho I'm dead tired. So I'll slug out one more night of work then I'm off Friday then I'm working Sat and Sun for Lisa. It'll be ok, since we can't see Alec til 6pm anyway.

Sam's coming home on Saturday. I can't wait to see her. Caitlin was home yesterday just for the day. As soon as I saw her, I just started bawling. I know when I see Nik I'm going to cry (tearing up just thinking about it) and when I see Sam I'll cry. I'm just a walking talking bawling mess this week. But it's ok, better than drinking or doing drugs.

I printed out a bunch of jokes to send Alec. I mailed him 2 letters yesterday, going to try to mail a couple a day. Ok gotta get ready to meet my boy..haven't seen him since my birthday....

Alec

Alec did great today. Of course he is not eating "food" yet but that starts tomorrow. I am very proud of him. He let me come home since I had to work last night and was very tired today. Alec I love you more than you will ever know. I tell you that all the time, I know you do not understand it. You will one day when you are a parent. Until then, rest assured, you are loved.

Nik's eyes...

sux.......He told me last night he's now legally blind...correctable to 20/200. I'm so bummed for him. At first I had a good feeling about his eyes, but I think that's because he doesn't always tell me how bad it is. Now I know that it's bad and there's absolutely nothing that we can do about it. He's applying for SSI. Tomorrow is Alec's medical conference, to decide what we're going to do. Sam's at camp til the 22nd. Caitlin is moving into a new apartment. I am ok....just ok.