3.03.2006

When I grow up...

Sammi says she can't wait to grow up. Why??? Is it going out on your own?? Being a grown up with all the fun and responsibilities that go along with it??? Getting a car, house, husband, babies??? No, so I can tell my dad that I know he drinks and the cologne and toothpaste don't cover it up at all, like he thinks it does. That was her answer. She came home hungry yesterday because he slept the whole time they were there and wouldn't make her anything to eat, and Alec came home without his homework done because he slept the whole time they were there and Alec needs help staying focused on his homework.

This has been a crappy day. Called neurosurgery office, they will call back....Yeah , right...No call. Sam got her stitches out...Ouch, she cried a bit and there was bleeding involved, but now she's ok. Alec bummed out he still weighs 55. Caitlin bummed out she weighs more than 90 lbs. She prob weighs about 120. She's 5ft 6inches. She's perfectly perfect. I only weighed 107 lbs when I was her age, way too skinny. Sam happy she weighs 79 lbs. Jeez, she's getting hefty....Pants that fit her 2 weeks ago do no fit now. She wore her last pair of shoes for about a month, now ready for next size. I can't afford to keep up with her.. Might have to hit the resale shops. I'm so bummed out about Chris being such an ass. I keep telling myself that I can't change him and I really know that but it would be nice if he would get his head out of his ass. I told Sam today that it'll probably never happen. Bad habits are hard to break.

1 comment:

The Laundress said...

Hey there Ellen,

Wow. You have fine kids. They are doing great. You and I need to chill out on the whole weight thing, damn if that is not one vicious trap!

But alcoholics? Way too many in my life too...

They REALLY can not help it. Your kids papa would NOT be doing this if he could help it. I really hope someday he does bottom out and quit... but until then, remind yourself and the kids that he is certainly NOT drinking by CHOICE.

Don't take this as preachy... just that in my opinion, you and your daughter sound like if you could just say the right thing you might get through to this guy. Oh, it is all his... betcha he loves you both as best he can. Hope someday he gets past the hooch.

Love, Laundress